The woman I posted about yesterday, whose son died on Friday is in tortuous pain. I found out today that his death was not expected. As sick as Leukemia made him, they didnt expect him to die at this time.I called her Mom today, who she has been staying with as I heard she was rejecting visitors. Her mom is heartbroken. She is dealing with the loss of her grandson and the inability to comfort her daughter. *L* refuses to see people, rarely talking on the phone to anyone. She said that L doesnt want to live.
And I completely and totally understand. Ive not lost my child, but I can only surmise that is exactly how I would feel. And I am in recovery. I have a program of living. I have support. L has none of that. She left al-anon over 2 years ago. History of depression, severe anger problem. I can only imagine that death must seem like the only option.
I tried to 12 step her, told her a bunch of us want to come over and be with her. The grandma will think about it, but she is afraid of the angry repercussion it will cause. I really feel like someone has to intervene. Im going to take time and pray on it. Im not going to do MY will, but Gods on this one.
Ya know what the funny thing here is? I used to detest this woman. Resented her like hell. Took me a full year of spitting bullets at her til I finally started to pray and ask to be relieved of the obsession of hating her. I reached out to her one year at Christmas and invited her to my home for a party. She brought my Jackson a gift. An electric razor. Remember my previous post about his wanting to shave?
God wants me to help those who cant help themselves. Im thinking she is one of those. I hope God chooses to make me an instrument of his will.
ICU Nurse it is
2 years ago
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You are already an instrument of God's Will! Just ask anyone around you, or on the blogs (by Email?)
Before attempting an "Intervention" pleasee seek professional guidance. We did one just two weeks ago Tuesday (tomorrow) and I thank God He led us to one who knew the exact words to say--and more important...what NOT to say. Stick to ONE agenda, everyone on same page! Hope this helps...
I hope that she will decide to come in. Does she have any close friends who she might talk to? I don't know how I would proceed. But I believe that praying for God's will will help. It's good that you are thinking of her and how to help. Maybe taking a dish of food by for her would help. We flood people with food after a death in the South. It has been a long standing tradition. And it seems to be much appreciated.
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