Man...Im so grateful to God. And that I remembered to say my morning prayers while driving to work, in loud distracting traffic.
Tonight, Im on way home from Publix, with Jackson, tired, wanting to go to bed. I get a text from a *band-aid* Al-anon friend. "Can u talk"?. What was my first reaction you ask?
"NO!" You didnt come to my mothers funeral, as you promised! You dont come to meetings, even though your life is totally farked up living with a stalking, obsessive drunk to beat all drunks of a husband". "So, NO, you dont get my phone call".
So of course I text her back saying "Yes. Call". HA! It only took me a few seconds to spew my poop. Took God even less than that to work that miracle inside my mind. After I silently vent, the thought hit me "Thats GODS thoughts infiltrating my angry Al-Anon mind :)". Anyhow, the thought says " She's probably in a crisis. She probably needs some 12 stepping". And I was right.
Long story short. The drunk got her car shot up, blood on seat with a nice size hole ripped in the leather. Car-jacking attempt, says he. More like a visit to the crack house gone wrong. She is terrified, hiding in her bedroom, on the floor. Thinking a drug dealer is coming to attack her house, cus the car is out front. I have not heard terror like that in a long time from anyone.
I listened, then I went in for the "kill" as they say. Help her see HER part in the terrorism she is choosing to live in. Tried to introduce her to "reality" of the yets as they are quickly entering her life. Gave her tough love, then followed up with hope. The most important aspect of 12 stepping. Shared my E,S,H on how I acquired hope, and peace, and freedom. I could hear the relief, her voice soften, he fear to relax. She promised to go to a meeting and her shrink tomorrow. I asked her to promise to call me at the end of the day to tell me that she did.
When I hung up, I thanks God over and over again, for LETTING me do HIS will. For not attaching myself to my ANGRY will and to swallow my ego and call her.
No matter WHAT happens to her, GOD helped me in my emotional sobriety tonight and for that I am ETERNALLY GRATEFUL!!!
ICU Nurse it is
2 years ago
2 comments:
~C~ You are doing JUST what we DO! And you are doing it well.
You sound well-prepared, confident, and spiritually fit--at least when it was SO appropriate to be those things.
Your experience today makes ME grateful, knowing I am in a program where OTHER people do the same things the whole world over, without thought of reward, just doing God's Will, as He sets it before us.
thank you Steve, coming from YOU, this is a huge compliment!
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