Quality time with my son

Today the boy and I went to David, Fl for his weekly tuba lesson. I did some shopping while he was blowin his horn. After we ate lunch at Boston Market, and then went to have fun!

We went to Markham park, a large u-can-do-it-all park. Gun range, fly gasoline powered airplanes, doggie park, everything. We threw the frisbee around and watched some awesome airplanes buzz over head. The blue skies of south Florida were gorgeous, temperature nice and cool. After, we went to "Barkham Markham", the doggie park! We stayed inside with the doggies while they jumped and played with eaach other. It was so much fun to see them run and just be dogs with total stranger dogs. There was one white poddle-oddle mix male that just couldnt keep his paws off the oher males, if ya know what I mean. Humping n jumpin was his plan, though he had a long love affair with another male dog's genetailia. His pecker must have been dipped in peanut butter cus that white dog was a lickin' it with gusto!

I loved seeing the variety of dogs, loves seeing them run and run, free to be themselves. Makes me want to get a little doggie.....the *mama* in me is kicking up for a pet.

Jackson and I laughed and laughed as he did his silly impressions of me, goofing on his pet names for his *man* parts, just being silly and funny. These are days that I cherish. Love the closeness we have. Moments his father will never have. By his own choice.

I wonder if he ever gets sober again, will the guilt and shame eat him alive?

I assume it probably will