Letting go...again

My best boy, the love name I call Jackson, went to camp today. I drove him up yesterday, dropped him today and drove home. He is at a small university in Florida, at a music camp, especially for brass instrument player. He sleeps in a really nice dorm, situated on a beautiful southern campus. Im so happy for him, he loves this camp. This week is so need for him. The last month has been hard and depressing with my mothers death. He needs a break.

I was envious of his ability to be at this beautiful environment. I never went to camp, and would love to be there myself this week. He thanked me several times for taking him, he is just so happy to be there.

I said my goodbye, hugged him and drove away. Feeling a little empty, sad that we are apart but also grateful that I have raised him to be independent and not "clingy" to his mommy, like I was to mine. I really have done the best parenting job I could possibly do and I am proud of him.

When I grow up, I want to be just like my best boy.

My son, my beautiful son

Today Jackson wanted permission to walk 3 miles to the 5 Guys burgers N fries to eat. I offered to drive, or for him to use his scooter, but he wanted to walk. 6 miles round trip....in Miami heat. I said NO NO NO NO NO NO....until I said yes. He wore me down, I couldnt understand why he wanted to do it, but was glad he wanted to get out and exercise. So I let him go.

He just came back, some 2 + hours later.He was sweaty and all huffin n puffin. He pulled something out of his back pack and gave it to me. It was a hallmark card. It was addressed "To whom it may concern" with all the i's dotted with hearts. Thats his funny sense of humor in action.

On the outside of it it said "God Bless You", and on the inside...well, look below, I scanned it. He has been worried about me since my Mom died and has been a rock of love for me. He just wanted to say he loves me. Am I the LUCKIEST woman in the world,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,or what?